The update:
Heading home from my endoscopy at UPenn. So where do I start? How about I use the doctors exact words?
"Good news."
Yes, good news.
The endoscopy was performed to get a better look at the tumor in my stomach, the supposed root of my cancer.
Well, that was a little hard to do because the tumor isn't there anymore. Yup, it's gone. It's gone! Hence, the good news. The area of the stomach where the tumor was is no longer looking ulcerated and he could see healing in its place and new blood vessels forming.
Well, shit. As realistic and many times pessimistic as I am, today I must allow myself to accept good news.
I was just hoping for a "it shriveled up a little" but I got better than that.
So, what now?
I don't know. And right now I really don't care l. Next week I head in for chemo and will talk to the docs then.
But for now here is all I have:
I have been in a lot of pain all over my body for the last 2 weeks. Thinking it's chemo related but I will see what the doc says.
Also, my throat is killing me from the endoscopy.
But guess what?
I don't give a shit!!!!!!
I had a good cup of coffee.
I just ate delicious fish tacos.
Oh yeah, and the tumor in my stomach is gone.
So I am heading home.
I plan on crying tears of relief and smiling when I get home to my kids. I plan on being grateful for being alive because honestly and statistically, I should be dead or dying already.
I plan on appreciating all of the love and support from friends, family, and strangers.
I don't think this post even flows.
And again, I don't give a shit.
The tumor in my stomach is gone.
Thank you...
Goodnight....
And good news...